Life

So, like the John Lennon Song "Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans" I was cooking along, procrastinating while I perused my navel and imagining that I was going to come to some conclusion about my life plans and I had what the doctors say was a Gall Bladder attack and They scheduled a surgery on Oct 30 ... a week before that date I had a terrible Anxiety attack (my first in my memory) and my face got red and pulsing and my blood pressure shot up and my stomach was upset and I was shaking. Sooo I called up and canceled the surgery until I could get more information...Today I went on the Mayo Clinic site (Andrew helped me with that) and informed myself about Gall Bladders and what you can do with them...so I feel much better about the surgery now and I will reschedule it asap. I was really scared...just didn't have enough information...I am now convinced that I will need to do it...anyway, it will let me procrastinate my life plans just a little bit longer! Any Port in a Storm!!

Goodbye September, Hello October...

So, I missed all of September...I went on September 8 to Pennsylvania to visit with Andrew and Melissa and came home the night of the 15th...then I got a cold right away which was a corker and lasted and lasted through the whole month of Sept. I finally went to the doctor on October 6 and got some antibiotics and cough medicine...so this is the first time in almost a month that I am once again human. Today is my Birthday and I feel very lovely...had a lot of calls this AM with songs and I am going to the beach and asking the waves about how to proceed with my life...Today I am 73 years old...who would have thunk it??? My plans for my life never included old age and yet here I am right in the thick of it and feeling pretty much fine and dandy. I just have to decide what to do next...I tend to float. I just have to gird my loins and leap into the next thing. I always am able to do that eventually, though I do seem to need to hang around the edges and think it over for a while. I will be teaching at Otis and UCLA in the Spring and so I will have a little money for that...it is gratifying to be invited to teach. I need to contact Santa Monica College and set something up there. I am enjoying embroidery and my personal inspiration books that I keep. I spent some time gluing inspiring photos into my ART, FURNITURE and SCREEN books...Maybe now I will actually MAKE some Art that will be inspired by them...Maybe...No...I must be more positive and sure about my intention to actually proceed with my Art...OR I need to stop dreaming about it...Maybe. Here I am, Carole Maybe Free...undecided as usual...Well, Today is my Birthday, so I do not have to do anything that I do not want to do, so I will get on the stick tomorrow...No Guts, No Glory...Shit or get off the Pot...Spit in one hand and Wish in the other and see which one gets full first...I won't think about this today, I'll go crazy if I do...I'll Think about this tomorrow...after all, Tomorrow is another day....The end.