So now it's Thursday

So, all the stuff that took place on Tuesday must have worked, because I was up until 1:30 AM working on an illumination of the letter "B"..went to bed then up at 5:00AM working on it again...Hours and Hours of work and I realize that it is ever so slightly crooked...Funnily enough, that is really OK and I did what I could to correct the angles so it would not be noticed as much...but, it is most definately crooked. When I did the layout, I was thinking that this was just a practice piece and I wasn't particularly careful about the correctness of the whole thing...So, lesson (I hope) learned...I know this from painting...that if the beginning is rushed or carelessly treated, then the final result may suffer for it. Creativity does not mean wadding things up and mashing them around..that is not the risk-taking I am looking for...I am willing to chance screwing a piece up by trying something new, but sloppiness is just not where I am at with the whole thing. There is a fine line between perfectionism as a bad thing and trying my best to do something as well as I can. I think, this time, that I may remember that..hope so. Anyway, I like the "B" a lot, crooked or not and I had an idea this morning about doing the whole alphabet to create an ABC book. As Gaudi said, we return to the source...I used to make ABC books with scrap paper, glue and magazine cutouts when I was a child..I have always liked them.. I have also always liked quotes. I have a lot of them taped to the door jamb and (somewhere) a book or two filled to the brim with quotes I have collected over the years. It seems to me that the Calligraphy and the illumination may prompt me to do more with these things...the evolving of the act of creation is fascinating to me...and, I only have one subject to study it...Me. I think that this is important for me to remember...That whatever I am doing is OK...because I injure no one and I feel great pleasure in my own activities. It has only taken me 71 years to realize this...not bad, really, some people die before they get this. A contented day, this Thursday. Thanks.

Another Tuesday

So, it's another Tuesday...I am, of course at the Library and considering many things. I am focused on Creativity..I am surrounded by it...as I pull my feet, one by one from the Mire of my Ennui. Konosuke' comes today so my body will be creatively inspired. I have been reading and looking a lot lately so my mind is stimulated to respond. I am spending more time in contemplation and thoughtfulness and mindfulness so my spirit is rising up within me and I feel hopeful that the changes that are occuring are for my best self to be nurtured. It has taken so very long for me to get here...not that I know what here is...I need a map with the little arrow that says YOU ARE HERE. It seems that I have so many decisions to make that I am overwhelmed. In reality, there is only one decision to make...that I truly want to proceed into my future with new ideas, aspirations, goals and vigor. That I am willing to let the decisions of my past fall to the side and with excitement embrace the all new, creative and inspiring future..the future that awaits ME...I wrote once, long ago about the ME-ness of ME. That is the decision to make...may I make it soon. I know that once something is set (more or less) that the trip is easier...Here is to "The SET" and the trip...Whew!

This is Thursday...and

This is Thursday, and I have not done my homework...sigh. My class is tomorrow morning and I hate that I leave things to the last minute...I think it short changes my creativity. I think that always being under the gun gives me an excuse if I don't like what I come up with, or if what I am doing is just short of good. I want to think about this because at age 71 it might behoove me to knock that off. It is obviously not getting me what I want, or think I want. I think that when I started this blog about my own creative process (and other stuff I think about) I was working at my own pace on what I wanted to do, so the procrastination viper did not raise its ugly head. I like doing what I want to do when I want to do it. BUT! I do not know how to letter beautifully and I do want to learn and I KNOW that the only way to master the tools is to practice and DO THE HOMEWORK! Still, I do put it off to tomorrow...not working, Carole, not working. I still have time tonight, but I have a computer class this afternoon which I really want to go to, so I can LEARN! And, Bret Lyon is coming in to town so I will be meeting with him and his new girlfriend sort of after dinnertime. I also have all day on Saturday to catch up. See how my mind works? I go away now to think about these issues...I hope to find out how I can really work sometime before I die and it is moot. Now that I ask myself the questions, perhaps I will worry out the answer. I could really use some Lottery winnings at this time in my life if anyone with power is listening.