Tired Tuesday

So, just coming off the Holiday weekend. My friend, Hal, who is 96 broke his hip and I went to see him yesterday and today and it is also my friend Don's Birthday (Hal's son). I tried to really listen to Hal and what he is thinking because I believe he has a lot of wisdom to offer me about life. He is doing remarkably well for a man his age with a serious injury like a broken hip. It makes me think about all the time that I have been given that I just waste. Mostly with my blah blah and my ennui and my flopping around. This is really the time of my life when I must make some decisions about what the quality of life is that I am seeking. Barnum said that you can fool some of the people all of the time and all of the people some of the time and I have to remember that I am the people. I am sorting books again and not working...what else is new? I find myself and my angst and etc. discouraging. I am hoping that Wednesday will be a better day. Now, quoting Scarlet, "Tomorrow is another day...I'll think about that tomorrow...If I think about it today I'll go crazy"...well, not exactly crazy, but kind of spinning my wheels plopping...which may be worse. This is all of this kind of crap that I can stand, so I will go home and dutifully sort books. I am a good person, just screwed up. Oh my.