a week without sleep

So, still did not make any ART worth talking about, but I did go to Calligraphy class and I will also go tomorrow...so I do some work there...(very little) I also met Kirstin today at her friends open studio..a collage artist named Marina (not Day) and was quite impressed by the amount of work she had turned out. It was a LOT! I took my few little collages along to show to Kirstin and I also showed them to Marina. I think that if I am going to try to be serious about fine art I better move it and mark it. Always reminded of Daddy Bob who said "Spit in one hand and wish in the other and see which one gets full first" He also said "Shit or get off the pot". Gaudi talked about returning to the source and the influence of childhood things. So, I should probably be really clear that you need to work. I believe in work, I believe that inspirtation comes while you work, not while you wait. I want to work..WHY DON'T I WORK? I keep getting sidetracked by other things in my life. This week, I have been involved with caring for Jacob (hence the title)and so that is my excuse this week. Next week I will surely find something to distract me from what I really want...just to make Art. What the hell is going on with me? This is a real conundrum.(spelling?) I know I am not alone with this stuff and that is little or no comfort. My space is not adequate or the best, but what I know in my heart is that if I want to make Art I can do it in a public restroom, or under a bridge...and, certainly, when I own the house and the big back yard and the garage I should be able to figure it out. I really don't want to beat up on myself, I am truly stumped. It is almost as though I were two people...one that wants me to be an Artist in every sense of the word and one that thinks it is a waste of time, after all and that what I should be doing is housework, grandma stuff and Joe Job stuff. Waaah Waaah Waaah and Boo F-----G Hoo. Enough! Next blog entry might be, should be better...all better. (I will, at least, have had more sleep)