Hey, hey, all the way

So, now it is Thursday, and I just returned from the post office, where I mailed packages to Janet, Penny and the Sqrl and Bee. I had filled some eggs with chocolate for Easter and I wanted to give them to the people at the Post office that I mostly deal with. I think they were pleased..I know I was. Sometimes something very simple to do gives me a lot of pleasure when I do it. I spent the morning going through things and throwing stuff out. I will spend time today boxing books, etc to donate or sell at the book store and, of course, I will do something for my HOMEWORK...still an issue. Although, yesterday A.M. I made myself late for a Docs Appt because I was changing the layout of the lettering to go with the letter "c". I realize now that I am just at a standstill about it because I am having trouble fitting the whole poem on the paper that is left after putting in the image. I guess I really need to work on larger paper, not especially work bigger, just work on a larger surface so I have lots of room to innovate once I have completed the image. Lesson (I hope) learned. It seems a little insane to be working so hard both emotionally and creatively and spending so much time on projects that are almost guaranteed to bring in nothing in the way of revenue. But, I have to say that it is such a pleasure to do it...AND...I find in myself a drive to do the work that I cannot access when I am doing other things...When I was little, I used to check books out from the library and do projects at home...teaching myself how to make flour paste, cutting up milk cartons, etc. I made a bug village with little beds made from matchboxes, cartons for houses, etc. Such a pleasure...I don't remember what happened to it, but that is not important. I DO remember building it and the pleasure still comes upon me when I think about it. It was a wonderful time I had, making that...I can almost feel the warm sun on my skin as I write this and the warmth of the cement back porch I sat on while I built it. These things are good. I am always telling students that the process is more important than the product..and I really do believe that is true. All the same, at the present, I am interested as much in the product (the C and the Cow) as the process. So maybe I answered my own question. That the reason I am "stuck" is because I have made the product more important that the process. I need to feel the sun on my back and the warmth of the cement I sit on and just finish the frigging cow. Perfection can come later..Today I build my version of a bug village...This blog IS helpful...Thank you, Andrew.